So after writing that entry the other day I'm sitting here wondering if I should even bother writing here. However, I'm bored out of my mind and I can't quite get to a good office-friendly website that will amuse me. And Dooce hasn't updated since 10 minutes ago, so really, what's left to do?

The guy is coming over tonight and we're going to watch our favourite shows: Survivor, CSI and ER. Should be fun. I usually go to sleep around 9:30 and he knows this so he told me not to hesitate to fall asleep on his belly. I just may take him up on that offer, but I just may not. I'm not at that stage where I can allow myself to sleep on anyone's body parts.

I really like him and I'm reminded of my high school years where I was crushing on somebody so bad that I would wake up every morning with a smile on my face and come home every night without a smile because it just seemed like he would take my smile home with him. And that's how I feel now. The guy just keeps stealing my smile because he's the one that makes me smile the most now and it's only been such a short while. I'm shocked out of my skin.

I hesitate to ask him my usual self-conscious questions because I really want this one to work. And I sit here wondering how charming I used to be and if I still am a charming cute one...

And I see children and a house and a fence and a cocker spaniel and it's just right there within reach...but I can't reach for it just yet because wouldn't that just scare him away!? However, he has told me that he does want kids and pretty much everything I want with the exception of unlimited access to the Simpsons. I'll allow him that one "vice."

I joke.

The guy told me that when we went to school together, all of 13 yrs ago, he used to have a crush on me and he adored my smile. Apparently I was always smiling then, even though it was my worst hellish year. He says my smile hasn't changed.

I've had long relationships in the past but I'm sure I was never in love before. And now all the signs are there and I'm just smiling all the time and feeling giddy. Is it possible to be giddy at 26?

His mother is friends with my good friend and next-door neighbour who's known me all of my 26 yrs and that's a bad thing. His mother is finding out all kinds of information about me and she is in turn leaking info to him which is very bad. It's all good, of course, but it's almost all equally embarassing. My friend told his mother that it would be a frosty night in hell before I changed my routine... and here I am having him over tonight to watch all these shows and staying up past my weekly bedtime so I can be with him. Frosty, indeed.